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Tuesday, July 15th, 2008
7:49 pm - So I guess I should update this thing
A lot of stuff has happened lately, but my motivation to keep in touch and update internet networking sites is non existant. My motivation to do anything, really, is pretty much non existant, but I assume we all need our times off.

I guess I have to start with the bad news. I regret to say it, but I'm pretty sure I won't be making it to California this summer. I had a bad fall and broke two bones in my neck. The injury itself isn't bad and doesn't hurt, but I had to miss nearly two weeks of work. Since this definitely wasn't planned in my budget, I'm going to have to work until the very end of the summer to make up for it. Plus, there's no guarentee that I will have my neck brace off on time and if I'm going to spend that much money on a trip, I want to get the most out of it. I'm thinking maybe around Christmas...

In happier news, I finished my first year of pharmacy. It went pretty well, although once again I've fallen into my old habit of doing tons of work at first, then burning out and not doing anything towards the end. I began the year with the ambition to become an excellent student, but I guess it's just not who I am. It's okay, there are other things I'm good at.

I did my first internship (we call the SPEs) in a pharmacy in May. I did well, although I find that working in a community pharmacy isn't really for me. I loved interacting with customers/patients, especially the really...um...exciting...ones, but I wasn't a fan of all the paperwork. I'm looking forward to doing a hospital internship next year. Hopefully it will be full of complex cases and exciting patients!

My trip to Victoria/Toronto went very well. I was flu-ridden during my week in Victoria, but I did get to see the city before I got too messy. It's small and cozy, not exactly what I was expecting. Toronto was a blast and a week definitely wasn't enough! I've decided that I'm a city person. I like my conveniances and coffee shops and public transit. Toronto's too big for me, but something the size of Edmonton would make me happy. Hmmm....

I've been working at autistic camp ever since I got back, minus the time off I had to take when I hurt myself. I ended up getting paired with a laid back kid due to my new limitation, but suprisingly enough, he's a lot of fun. There's less challenge, but I've been pushing sign language on him and his progess is exciting. He's also super affectionate so I get hugs all day. Can't complain about that!

current mood: relaxed

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Tuesday, February 12th, 2008
12:44 am - Stupid things that I do
Ok, I know I get myself into minor trouble a lot, but this one is really worth posting about.

So I spent the few hours I had off work Sunday studying for my pharmaceutics exam on Tuesday. I figured I'd have Monday and Tuesday night to prepare for the photographic memory testing (aka anatomy) on Wenesday and the rest of the week to teach myself biochemistry for Friday's midterm. My plan was perfect.

So Sunday night, as I'm getting ready to get to bed at 1 am, I decide to check the anatomy syllabus. There, in all it's glory, was the date of the anatomy midterm: FEBRUARY 11, 2008. Oops. Turns out I had exactly 12 sleepless hours to teach myself 4 weeks worth of obscure details. Note that I've never attended an anatomy lecture because they're scheduled on top of my required napping time. Note also that for the past week I've been burning out: lots of sleep attacks, several hours of napping a day, forgetting random crap, losing stuff.

There was no point in panicking (the huge "don't panic" sign on my door comes in handy), so I got to work. Thankfully, I'm a good little student and had torn apart the chapters on blood, the heart and blood vessels earlier this semester. Only immunity and respiratory system to cover. I got through immunity in a little over 3 hours. It's confusing, but highly interesting.

I then attacked respiratory system. By then I was very tired and my pace had slowed down. Doesn't help that respiratory system is rather boring. I played every upbeat CD I owned and sent Billy a dozen cryptic messages on MSN to stay awake. I did manage to finish all the objectives and got to bed around 6 am. I skipped my morning class, but was up by 10 am to go over more chapters.

I was pretty drowsy for my morning cramming session so I studied while pacing my room. Note that my room is the size of a small walk-in closet. Not the best place for pacing if you want to be dizzy-free.

I got to school shortly after 12. Confused on a topic, I asked a classmate what the Haldane effect was. She gave me a funny look. I inquired to another classmate who proceeded to inform me that the respiratory system wasn't even on the test!

Yeah, I guess I should check my course syllabi a little better from now on.

In the end, the test went ok considering the circumstances. I expect around a 70%.

There is one thing that I learned about finding out about exams at the last minute though: the adrenaline rush is INCREDIBLE! I was so wired right before that midterm...it was worth it just for that.

Anyway, I got to get a little bit more studying for pharmaceutics done. (And one of these days I'll make a general update...)

current mood: silly

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Friday, November 9th, 2007
1:13 am - Almost finals, already?
Less than a month until finals... I can't believe the semester went by so fast! Its just been a blur. Before I started school in the fall I was bummed about having to do 4 years here, but at the speed time goes by, I really don't think 4 years will be long!

Sorry it took me so long to getting around to answer previous comments. I didn't realise how much time had gone past! I love you girls! *big hugs*

Anyway, I'm taking advantage of this evening to write a blog because 1)for once I don't have anything urgent to get done and 2)I'm very, very, very happy for no apparent reason. If only all my mood swings could be like this. :erm:

School is going pretty well. I didn't do fantastic in my last round of midterms, but I think I have a good excuse. I had a pretty good distraction last week, as Billy was visiting me from California. I don't think I have to specify that the week was tons of fun. We got a lot of quality time together and I made sure our week was packed with great activities. Which reminds me, Basho's has delicious, delicious food. It was definitely worth the 100+$ I spent there.

Going back to school news, I got involved in a lot of projects. At first I was a little nervous, wondering if I'd be able to handle so many commitments, but the more I do, the more I seem to enjoy myself. I've been gaining confidence and skills, so the perspective of being involved isn't as scary as it once was. Also, the fact that I'm always busy and around people is very good for me. When I'm alone I just get moody and wallow in my self-pity. I find people very energising. Its so unlike me, but I guess we all change over the years.

I've been working at Tim Hortons too. I know most people who work there don't really like it, but it is a fun job. There's always lots to do so I find the shifts go by pretty fast. Also, having money coming in is a very good thing! I don't think it covers all my expenses, but I don't feel so bad anymore when I buy myself a lunch or indulge a bit when I go to the grocery store. Sometimes I even buy myself a drink or two at the bar. Not too often though... Spending is evil!

And I think this pretty much covers all the news I'm willing to post on a public entry =P. Not that I really have anything more to add in a friends only entry. My juicy life has been pretty dry I must say.

EDIT: I can't believe I forgot add my big nerdy news! Rygka *finally* got her Charger. At level 67, we can say "about time". Big thanks to Zlati who ran me through Scholo and then found us a great group after we experienced some trouble with the quest. It was a fun night.

current mood: hyper

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Thursday, September 13th, 2007
4:33 pm - Update
Been awhile since I posted an update. I'm back in Newfoundland and happy to be here. It's really nice to be in your stuff and not have to worry about parents commenting your every move (or worse, telling others about your every move).

I had a great summer. Worked both camp and the souvenir shop, which was a blast. Some days were easier than others, but most of my memories are good ones. After camp ended, I worked the night shift at the kids sleepover camp. It was 6 hours of watching anime and playing offline video games, then 4 hours of keeping the kids entertained. Being 1 for 9 kids was rough, especially when one decides to throw a fit while two run away in opposite directions, but I got through it in the end. The week after that, I did two days of teenager-adult sleepover camp. That was amazing. I paired with the coolest teenager ever. I asked to be paired with him during day camp next year, but so did everyone else, so we'll see.

Somehow I managed to get some me time, too. Memoreable moments were spending a weekend in Montreal with Emilie and receiving a visit from Emilie, Aydee and Eric. I'm taking on a smaller workload next summer so hopefully I'll get to see people more.

School has started but thankfully they're going easy on us. I say thankfully because the first week of classes is packed with conferences, ceremonies and social events. Pharmacy school is a 24/7 involvement. It's worth it, though. We have a crazy budget so our parties are brilliant, my classmates are super cool people and classes have been extremely interesting so far. Nevertheless, I'm looking forward to spending an afternoon at home, doing homework in my pyjamas.

My birthday was a lot of fun. I usually dread birthdays because I find they're just there to remind you how insignificant you are. But I went out for supper with some friends and Zlati flew down the following day so I can't complain. I got spoiled by my parents and by Zlati and I was touched by everyone who sent me "happy birthday" messages. (Note: I tried to thank everyone personally and if I overlooked anyone, it was unintentional. Thanks again to everyone *big kisses*)

current mood: cheerful

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Saturday, August 11th, 2007
6:52 pm - Flattering for the ego
We had our camp award ceremony last night. Everyone gets an award for a personal quality they have. The awards are always "Golden *insert quality here*" I didn't understand most of it because they chose a room with poor accoustics, but I read my note afterwards and was quite flattered. My award was "Golden Constance". In camp language, it's a very high compliment. During training and staff meetings, the supervisors repeat over and over again how important it is to be constant in our interventions. By "being constant" they mean always enforce the same rules, always use the appropriate intervention for a perticular situation. It's important because we're dealing with people who have little or no understanding of language and rely on cause-effects to know what's expected of them. Anyway, I translated the text that came with my award. I know that the grammar isn't perfect. I kept the syntax errors because correcting them might change the meaning of the sentences.

"Jennifer is without a doubt the person who demonstrated the most constance with her camper. She also proved with her camper exactly how patient she is and how she never gives up. We have all admired her patience and her constance at one time or another, qualities that make her an excellent monitor. She was constant with her own camper but also with all the other campers she worked with. We could see the sparkle in her eyes which proved that she loved them all with no exceptions and all love her and feel good when they are in her presence. Always ready to help others and assist monitors in their interventions, she is a person that everyone would want to work with because she succeeds in everything she attempts. She inspires confidence and gives us the desire to get more involved. Thank you " golden constance", you will certainly leave your mark at L'Escapade."


Some points are kind of ironic, though. I think that text was written in week 6, right before I had a breakdown which led to me getting transfered to the teen-adult building. Also, the day of the awards, I had been thinking that I should work on being more constant. I laughed when I saw what my award was.

I have a new camper now, a teenage boy. He's non-verbal but very autonomous. It's a lot of fun to work with him, although at times it's so easy that I feel like I'm cheating. Apparently, he wasn't stimulated much in the past, so no one knew exactly how bright and fun he is. I was told that the reason was that people are a little afraid of him since he's so tall. I don't really see what's so scary about him, but whatever. I'm constantly being told that I'm awesome for what I'm getting him to do. I laugh and reply, "no, he's the awesome one." Seriously. It didn't take a whole lot of convincing on my part to get him to sit down to eat, to play ball with the other campers, to do puzzles, etc. All I had to do was ask.

I think that's a lesson that applies to a lot of things in life. It's amazing what happens when you just ask.

current mood: happy

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Sunday, July 22nd, 2007
9:27 pm - Wee, mid-camp!
Week 4 out 8, yay. I haven't had my evaluation yet, but I have a feeling it'll be the first thing on Monday. I'm always last for evaluations ;_;. I feel like I'm doing a good job. L. is progressing well. I'm still looking for the right intervention for her, but I'm not out of ideas. The thing is, you have to go by trial and error so by the time you discover the right trick, the summer's already over. I still find it very hard to be paired with a camper who doesn't move around a lot. I'm telling myself that in order to be good at interventions, I need to have experience with lots of different people, not just hyperactive children. Plus, this way I have energy to give the more active campers, energy I wouldn't be able to give them if I were paired with one of them at all times. Week 3 was very hard. I actually spend the whole weekend between week 3 and week 4 crying because I didn't want to go back to work. Luckily, week 4 was nothing short of miraculous. L. signed "I would like some help" on her own for the first time, some kids learned new words, other kids reveal skills no one thought they had... It was wonderful.

Work at the souvenir shop is good too. Today my collegue caught a thief. It was quite exciting. I'm sick of getting up at quarter to 7 every day of the week, but when I treat myself to a nice trip to California in May, I'll be glad I spent my summer getting up early to work.

What else can I talk about... I'm very happy these days. I'm exhausted so I lose my temper very easily (poor Zlati gets the worst of it...I'm going to scare away my gaming buddy ;_;) but my general mood is very good. I've managed to break myself of the habit of ruminating negative thoughts. It took A LOT of self control, but it gets easier after the first two weeks. I feel like I just got out of jail. I can't believe how enjoyable things are, how beautiful the world is. I hope it stays that way.

current mood: satisfied

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Saturday, July 7th, 2007
11:02 pm - Holy crap
I came across the initial hourly salary of a hospital pharmacist in San Fransisco. Spit the fingernails I was chewing on all over my keyboard. My jaw is still open in amazement.

I can't wait to graduate. Totally moving to Cali once I get enough experience to qualify for a job.

current mood: shocked

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Thursday, June 28th, 2007
10:04 pm - Still alive

So exhausted. Forgot how much work camp is.

My back has officially given away. I mutter every time I move. Gonna have to take it easy. I was blaming camp, but then it occured to me that I spend a lot of time half laying on my bed with the computor. So chances are, World of Warcraft is the real culprit. Why do video games have to be so cruel? ;(

Anyway, I'm wondering what the next 7 weeks are going to be like. It's easier than last year in that I know what I'm doing and that I'm much happier with my life. However, my kid this year and I have a lot more personality differences which makes it tougher for me. She does have her good moments, though. One day I changed her into dry clothes after which she bent over and planted a kiss on my forehead. It was adorable. =)

My non-professional life is rather non-existant. I gravitate between talking to Billy on MSN while he's at work and playing WoW. My parents are going nuts. They hate seeing me on the computor. I'm looking forward to school starting again so I can go back to having a normal life. I'm a bit lonely, but I really don't feel like going out and meeting new people. I'm thinking of my alone time as the quiet moments I'm not going to get much of come September. Still no news on where I'll be living though.

current mood: sore

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Thursday, June 14th, 2007
12:47 am - Things I never want to do
For some reason, I have a lot of trouble going to bed. Even on nights where I'm not having interesting conversations on MSN, I still have a very tough time motivating myself to go to bed. I don't get it. I'm super tired, I have nothing better to do, yet I *really* don't want to drag my arse into the shower. For the record, I have just as much trouble getting out of bed.

I also never want to give myself my shot. I actually skipped last dose. It's not a huge deal, but still. Zlati would scold me. We don't want that.

Another thing I never want to do is take my stuff out of my bag. I have tons of garbage in there that should be dumped. It would take me 2 minutes of my time, but I still resist doing it.

In update-worthy news, pharmacy interview went ok. I'll know whether or not it actually went well when I get my results at the end of June-early July. Until then I have no idea. I'm flattered that so many people asked, but I do get tired of repeating that I don't know exactly how it went. I started camp training on Monday. I don't like the room the training is in, but the week's almost over. I saw my kid yesterday, she's progressed a lot. The summer will probably be a lot easier than expected.

And that concludes this night's entry.

current mood: restless

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Tuesday, May 29th, 2007
12:04 am - Stuff
Saw the neurologist today. Asked him 32948739481 questions as usual. I'm not a hypocondriac, I just find my neurological system very interesting. Fatigue isn't too bad. Being cold all the time is either how I'm built or a side effect of the medication. Mood swings are likely normal for me, but aggravated by MS. (And I don't think they're as bad as my mom makes them out to be. I think she's the one with the problem because none of my friends have ever complained and they've seen me upset WAY WAY WAY more often than my mom has.) My spacing out might be minor absences or just how I'm built. My neuro suggested getting tested for epilespy but I decided to wait a year to see if they get worse.

Seeing the audiologist tomorrow. Not sure if I want my mom to come in with me or not. On one hand, I'm not going to be completely honest if she's there but on the other hand, she remembers my history, I don't.

In other news, I finished Are you the one for me a couple of days ago. I have to say, I'm impressed. I didn't like De Angelis' other book Secrets about Men so I didn't think I'd like this one either. I was proven wrong. I didn't agree with everything (I love porn too much to say that all porn is bad in a relationship!), but for the most part she put a lot of my observations into words. As someone who enjoys watching other people's relationships, I have a lot of pet peeves when it comes to stupid choices in a partner. De Angelis summed them up nicely. She also explains different levels of commitment, which was interesting. Even I learned something from that.

I think I'll give the book to Zlati when I see him next. He'll have to hide it because it's pink, but he'll probably like it. (And would kill me if he saw me post that here!!)

current mood: calm

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Monday, May 28th, 2007
1:05 am
Do you have any friends with benefits?
I like Matt's answer: "Yes. All my friends have the benefit of knowing me."

It's Wednesday at noon; where are you usually?
At work

What brand of shampoo is in your shower right now?
Some Herbal Essence I stole from my mom because I haven't bought myself some new Garnier-Fructis

What do you usually order at Taco Bell?
I don't usually order at Taco Bell.

Did you ever get into a bar and drink before you were 21?
Well, duh. Why would I wait until 3 years after I'm legal?

What were you doing last night?
Watching my mom's dance show, then getting drunk with her dance buddies.

Do you watch MTV anymore?
Nah. Don't watch any TV anymore.

What do you think of Oprah?
I don't.

You need a new pair of jeans; where do you go first?
I don't wear jeans. If I need a new pair of pants, though, I'd probably hit Jacob Connexion.

What kind of car do you drive?

Honestly, is that car insured?
Yes...my non-existant car is insured =/

Do you like sushi?
Love it.

Have you ever been to Tiffany & Co. or Saks 5th Ave?

What did you do today?:
Slept. Went on the swing. Cleaned up my room a bit. Worked on Jason's bday present. Talked to Billy.

Did your parents spoil you growing up?
I don't think so.

Do you like roller coasters?
Oh yes!

When you go out, do you prefer to go to a dance club or to a bar where you can chill with friends?
Bar to chill with friends. I like dancing, but I find clubs too loud and scary.

Do you like Carrie Underwood?

Been to Vegas?
Nope. Not really interested in going either.

How far away do you live from your parents?
Living with them for the summer.

Who will be your next kiss?
Who knows?

Are you happy with your job?

What did you get in the mail today?
Today is Sunday.

How do you like your steak cooked?

If you were to wake up from being in a coma for an extended period of time, name some people you would want to see around your bed.
My closer friends.

What's your favorite place?
It was the futon in the penthouse, but the futon is no more. I no longer have a favorite place.

How many states have you been to where all you saw was the airport?
Only one I think. And one province.

Are you currently planning a trip?
If my trip to St. John's for my interview counts, then yes.

Do you take anti-depressants?

Are you happy right now?

Who was the last person that texted you?
I don't text. If IM counts, then Billy.

Last time you cried?
Can't remember. Two-three days ago, I think. That's a long time for me, hehe. I've been rather unemotional lately.

Who did you want to win American Idol?
Didn't know who was running.

What's something you've always wanted?

What is the most athletic thing you've done this week?

When was the last time you saw your mom?
Couple hours ago.

No phone = no missed calls.

If you had a choice to be a unicorn or mermaid which would it be?
O.o Mermaids are sexy.

What is bothering you right now?
Some screw up with university applications.

What were you doing 15 minutes ago?
Same thing I'm doing now.

Your most hated thing about SHOWERING:
When the hot water runs out.

Have you ever googled your name?
Yeah. Nothing overly interesting.

If you could have a plane ticket to anywhere right now, where would you go?
Humbodlt, of course.

Relationship survey

1) Single, Taken, or Flirty?
Single and would-be flirty if there were males around.

2) Are you happy with where you are?
For the most part yes. I miss cuddling and sex, obviously, but emotionally I feel very fullfilled on my own.

3) When you meet the right person, do you fall fast?
It depends. I get physically attracted very quickly but when it comes to feelings, it takes me a long time. I can think of one occasion where I fell fast, but it's only happened once to my memory.

4) Have you ever had your heart broken?
In a way. It wasn't anybody's fault though. It was just my heart not agreeing with my head.

5) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is ok?
No. Cheating is wrong by definition.

6) Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
I might in extreme circomstances, but for the most part, definitely not. Hurt feelings I get over quickly. Humiliation, never!

7) Have you talked about marriage with another person?
Well, marriage in general, yes. Marriage to the person I was talking to? I think I have once, but wasn't overly serious about.

8) Do you want children?

9)how many?

10) Would you consider adoption?
Sure. Actually, I would love to adopt a child with autism. I love autistic children.

11) If someone liked you right now how would you want them to tell you?
Very slowly! I get creeped out easily.

13) Do you want someone you cant have?
You could say that.

14) Do you believe love at first sight exists?
Attraction, yes. And the general love I have for most people. But romantic love can only happen after you know someone and that takes a long time.

15) Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
Sure. But real anniversaries, though. Too many special occasions is just draining!

16) Do you believe that you can change for someone?
I can change for someone and that someone is me =).

17) If you could get married anywhere, money's not an object, where would it be??
Somewhere cool. A mountain top or something would be awesome. Or a field deep in the woods. I'd like to have an elven themed wedding, so anything that would fit the mood.

18) Do you have feelings for someone right now?
Replace someone by "a few people" and you'll have it right, hehe. It's all good though. It's great to be able to really invest in my friendships without feeling guilty.

19) Have you ever wished you could have someone but you couldn't?
Yeah, I tend to get attached to people who live far away from me and I don't do long distance relationships.

20) Have you ever broken a heart before?

21) Would you ever fight somebody over your boyfriend/girlfriend?
No. My boyfriends are big boys who can decide who they commit to. If a boyfriend choose not to commit to me, then I didn't want him anyway.

22) What would you say about your ex?
Which one? I'll assume the latest one. Great guy. Life gave me exactly what I needed at that point. I have no idea how I would have made it through the past year without him. He has tons of great qualities and will make some girl very happy some day.

23) What would he/she say about you?
"Crazy, horny French chick" Hehehehe. Otherwise I don't know. Probably not much. He doesn't really talk about exes unless he's very angry at them and he doesn't seem angry at me.

current mood: calm

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Thursday, May 24th, 2007
12:39 am
So I finally got my letter from MUN. I did get accepted for the interview. I found out yesterday while I was at work and produced a scene worthy of an american idol winner.

One of my friends from Sherbrooke came down on Monday and stayed until today which was nice. Always good to have old friends around.

Lots of stuff is happening but I can't be arsed to type it out. Been feeling rather moody and disconnected since last night for no apparent reason. Guess I should put some sanitary napkins in my bag. PMS is good for one thing: you're never caught unaware.

current mood: apathetic

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Tuesday, April 17th, 2007
10:31 am - Guess who finally got a copy of Burning Crusade!
I wasn't going to buy it until Ryk hit level 60 (which, by my pace, still won't be for awhile), but Zlati ended up getting it for me as a going away present. =D =D He has really good ideas sometimes. I'm thinking of buying a mic and downloading vent so that we can keep playing the way we do. We kick ass even when we're relying on typing, but it's nothing compared to what we can do when actually speaking to each other.

In other news, people are leaving and it's sad. Two of my roomates left (and one of them took off with my measuring cup -_-) and now the appartment is empty and eerie. Nate left today ;___; I already miss him terribly. He was the first person I spoke to here and helped me out a lot throughout the year. Hopefully we'll both get to come back next year. If not, my Friday nights are going to be pretty empty.

Zlati and I still have a couple of days, thankfully. I'm terrified of going through yet another heartbreak so soon, but I guess that's part of life. Besides, it might be different this time around. The dynamics of our relationship are very different than those of my previous one (not better or worse, just different!) plus I've grown a lot since the last time. Oh well, I'll worry about that when the times comes. For now it's time for studying.

Four down, one to go!

current mood: drained

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Friday, April 13th, 2007
11:07 am - Hmmm
Have you ever noticed that it feels really weird to wash your hands when half of your body is numb? I wasn't thinking about it and went to wash my hands. It was like, "HEYYYY!!!!!!!!!". So now I can't stop washing my hands and giggling.

I wonder what my roommates think.

Maybe I should try washing dishes. Or I should get my stuff together, head down to Tim Horton's and study. This stuff won't learn itself -_-.

current mood: silly

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Wednesday, April 11th, 2007
11:40 pm - A Mainlander on the Rock: 8 months later
[NOTE- This is the same as I posted on myspace. If it's a little evasive, that's why]

"So why Newfoundland?"

I've lost count of how many times I've answered that question. Usually I say something along the lines of: "I've always wanted to visit Newfoundland so I thought I'd move here." I don't get urges very often, but when I do, I tend to act of them. So, shortly after deciding to pack up and move to this place I'd never seen before, I found myself standing in St. John's airport feeling somewhat gutted. That sensation grew as I was dropped off in front of Hatcher house to get my keys and when I realised that I'd have to carry all my belongings all the way to Burton's Pond. It reached a culminating point when I realised that the tiny closet unlocked by my key was in fact my room. I cried so hard that day.

Now, nearly 8 months later, I'm curled up in my bed with my laptop, depressed about leaving. Perception-wise, 8 months felt like a 8 days. Productivity-wise, it felt like 8 years.

It took me awhile, but I find I've made a home for myself here. I made some great friends, I found a job, I got involved in the community. I've become well versed in coffee shops, local rock bands and bars. (Even though I rarely attends shows or frequent bars) As much as I looked forward to the end of the semester, now that it's here, I don't want to go home.

So how did the school year go anyway? It's weird to say, but I don't remember much. The first semester crawled by, the second wizzed past. I spent most of my time poured over my books, stressed out like all heck. Getting into pharmacy when your previous grades are as mediocre as mine requires nothing short of a miracle. I did my best and got interesting results, but only time will tell if it was enough.

Outside of academics, I've been the human manifestation of a tornado. Hyper and irritable, I can't believe that my friends actually put with me this whole time. I was going through a lot of changes in my life and I guess it was showing. On the bright side, I've been able to get really involved in things. Considering that I spent a good part of the last 10 years living in my bed, I'm very proud of my accomplishments. If this keeps up, I'll end up joining the MUNSU, the BPSA and switching my major to something crazy like political science ;D. Seriously speaking though, if I come back next year, I'm considering trying out for the cheerleading squad. I miss cheering a lot and if my energy keeps up, I'm sure I can pull it off. On the down side, my temper was rather out of control and I'd estimate that on an average day, I'd lose it around 3 times. (My poor, poor hands ;_;) I've also had more than my share of insomnia, poor eating and hyperventilation. However, I worked very hard on sorting through my problems and I've had amazing support from my friends and my man, and I have to say that for about 3 weeks I've been doing really good. There's the odd moment here and there, but in general, I'd estimate that I'm much more serene. I'm finally able to enjoy the here and now. I'm a little late to reap the benefits this year, but I'll make up for it next year, I promise.

Now for a summery of memorable things/events:
- Meeting Nate for the first time (how likely is it that the first person you talk to ends up becoming your main partner in crime?)
- Meeting Zlati for the first time ("Hey, if I sleep with you, will you help me get into pharmacy?" contrarily to popular belief, that's NOT exactly how it happened)
- Getting snowed in
- The Valentine's Day dance at Corte Real
- Zlati and Shagg fighting over Easter eggs
- Any Friday night I spent singing.
- Forcing sushi on Zlati (who didn't protest too vividly)
- That sign on how to cross the street.
- Coffee at Treats after my nutrition class
- My business speach (as well as the grade I got for it!!)
- My patients at the hospital

Some things that weren't funny at the time but are now:
- "You forgot your jacket!!!"
- "Driving down the interstate...." (Note that this must be sung off key with a heavy, strange indian accent)
- A pound of bacon sure smells funny.
- The fungi farm in my bathtub
- Hotel California and The Royal Penis is Clean
- Nova Scotia girls (Like, totally, like, omigod, like, like)

All I can say is that it's been an intense school year. I am looking forward to my vacation in California, it will be well deserved. The summer will be like last summer: working at Autism camp on weekdays and the souvenir shop on weekends. If I'm lucky, I'll get a week at the end of the summer to visit Zlati (<3). Nothing is sure for next year. I really hope to come back.

current mood: sad

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Tuesday, April 10th, 2007
5:57 pm - Bye bye calculus!
w00t! No more calculus for me! My final went very well. I had plenty of time and I went over the questions several times. I'm happy to get this out of the way.

In other news, a few days ago I got a rejection letter from ULaval for the ergotherapy program. Today another letter came, apologising for the mistake. I'm actually #19 (out of 31) on the wait list. My ego is very flattered. This unexpected option makes me uneasy though. What if I get in? Do I want to move back to Québec city? I have so many commitments here in Newfoundland. I don't want to start off from scratch socially or look for a place to live. On the other hand, getting into a program means that I'll see the light at the end of the tunnel, a sign that I'll get out of school and have a profession eventually. I'm sick of living in limbo.

Oh well, I have plenty of time to think about it. The joys of being on a waiting list means that I get extra time to make up my mind.

Now I have to worry about biology.

current mood: accomplished

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Sunday, April 8th, 2007
5:29 pm - Happy Easter!

Happy Easter everyone!

Life's pretty hectic here, but it's all good. Tons of end of semester events to fit in with my studying. For the first time that I can recall, I'm enjoying all the action. Now I gotta get my stuff together to for Easter dinner. *runs*

current mood: bouncy

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Thursday, April 5th, 2007
2:23 pm - Um..you know we can see your buttcrack, right?
One of my several pet peeves about this place are the girls who wear sweatpants in public, conveniantly pulling them down so that we can see about half of their buttcrack. Look, either you dress sexy or you don't. I've got nothing against sweatpants. They're very comfortable. I wore them to school up until the age of 11 (which is approximately the mental age of most of the girls around here) too. But no matter how much you fold them over or pull them down, they're not going to be sexy. If you want to be sexy, you don't pull your ugly pants down, you wear pants that compliment your figure.

The oddest thing about this practice is that it seems to be done almost exclusively by overweight young women with nasty stretch marks around their rectal area. Due to increasing obesity rates in Western culture, stretch marks have become a commonality even in persons have never given birth, I understand that. What I don't understand is why they are being shown off. It would be like me using makeup in a way to enhance my acne.

Seriously, my eyes hurt. No more fat buttcracks, please.

current mood: annoyed

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Wednesday, April 4th, 2007
8:29 am

The Everything Test

There are many different types of tests on the internet today. Personality tests, purity tests, stereotype tests, political tests. But now, there is one test to rule them all.

Traditionally, online tests would ask certain questions about your musical tastes or clothing for a stereotype, your experiences for a purity test, or deep questions for a personality test.We're turning that upside down - all the questions affect all the results, and we've got some innovative results too! Enjoy :-)

You are more emotional than logical, more concerned about others than concerned about self, more atheist than religious, more loner than dependent, more workaholic than lazy, more rebel than traditional, more engineering mind than artistic mind, more cynical than idealist, more leader than follower, and more extroverted than introverted.

As for specific personality traits, you are adventurious (100%), romantic (71%).

Young Professional90%
Old Geezer67%
Punk Rock60%
Life Experience

Your political views would best be described as Liberal, whom you agree with around 57% of the time.
Your attitude toward life best associates you with Upper Class. You make more than 47% of those who have taken this test, and 77% less than the U.S. average.

If your life was a movie, it would be rated PG-13.
By the way, your hottness rank is 76%, hotter than 94% of other test takers.

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[EDIT] Since when are having an engineering mind the opposite of being artistic? And my hotness is clearly more than 76%! *ego*

current mood: amused

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Monday, April 2nd, 2007
8:32 pm - April!
Last night, as I was going to log into WoW, I checked my email. There was one from my chemistry prof that went like this:

"Hi everyone,

I have added a number of mandatory assignments to deal with descriptive
chemistry. The first one will be due this evening (Sunday) but is pretty small.

You will see them on the website when you log in.

Take care and study hard."

This was at 20h30 and online assignments are always due at 23h00. I grumbled and cursed and logged into my account to do the last minute assignment. Sure enough, there was a message on the assignment website: "A class full of April Fools". I felt REALLY silly, hehe. I'd forgotten that this prof has a sense humour. I'm so gullible.

I had a great weekend. Friday night we helped Nate move downtown then got drunk at Zlati's. We sang songs with his roomates and some of their friends, it was a lot of fun. Made me pretty homesick though. Saturday, I worked at the hospital as usual. There have been a lot of changes lately. Most of the patients I'd grown close to have been discharged and there are many new ones so it's a question of readjustment. Sunday I went to my first science fiction convention: Sci-fi on the Rock. It was a lot of fun. I took pictures and should have them up on my MSN space within the next couple of days. I got my picture taken with Darth Vader and some random startrooper too =D. (I don't have that one on my computor, unfortunatly. I'll have to wait until I get my hands on a scanner.) The day ended very well with a delicious dinner at the Bamboo Garden and a night of WoW with my man :).

My breathing got really bad Friday night, which apparently freaked everyone out (apologies ;_;). I made promises that I'd go see the doctor today, but after taking it easy and being kind to myself, I'm doing a lot better. I'm still taking deep breaths, but I don't feel like I'm suffocating anymore and I certainly haven't had any other "attacks". It's good that we get a few days between classes and finals. The lessening of stress has been doing me a world of good. I'm also laying off the alcohol...

Ok, I got to get back to my packing boxes. It feels so weird to be moving for the summer already. After all, there's still snow on the ground.

current mood: cheerful

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